Society. One small word, but means an awful lot. The society we are growing up in, is false. Everything it stands for is fake. Young girls thinking they need boob jobs and botox to get anywhere in life, by auto-tuning every single song that is released and by having every single model in a magazine or a fashion show under a size 10. People need to be confident and they need to be confident in the way they look.
When I was in the last year of primary school, I didn't eat a lot. I was stick thin, and I remember my mum pritty much every day telling me I need to be eating more otherwise I'd end up in hospital. I think this carried on into high school and by the time the second year came I was overweight. I couldn't stop eating, I was buying crisps and chocolate in the morning before school, and buying a cone of chips after school every day, and then having my tea later on. I didn't care what I looked like, not sure why. I was being called fat all the time and that really damaged my confidence. In those days, you wernt really tought about healthy eating, there wasn't a Jamie Oliver there doing away with school dinners. I was fat throughtout school and into college, I had had enough.
I didn't try losing weight the old fashioned way by cutting down what I eat, Instead, I went online. I searched for things like 'lose weight fast' and 'get slim in a week' , I had read articles online about how people had took some pills and they were 'skinny' in a matter of months. I searched and I came across a website with one of those 'new members' offer. So I fell for it, I bought a months worth just to see if they work. After this, I bought what were called 'Slimming patches' , 'designed to give your metabolism a boost' the advert said. So, I fell for that too. After a few months I had realised that I was actually gaining weight, so I buy more and more. Looking back I gained weight cause I was eating more, thinking Im losing weight, but this was obviously wrong.
I dont know how, but I managed to kick the addiction. I moved away and after a couple of years lost just under 6 stone. Only just at the stage of regaining my confidence. I dont care what I look like, but it's horrible when you're young and you sometimes hated who you were. Its things like this when I really feel for the young people growing up today, so much pressure to be 'perfect' or 'normal' , but the way I see it, is there even a 'normal'?
