Since the last 6 months or so, my life has really come far, disappeared have the days of me working and all of my wages go straight towards the upkeep my flat, not even having the money nor the time to go out and see my friends, and not going out meaning that I eventually became a bore. The many shameful photos of me tagged by the people I regularly go out with tell a different story, but I felt like I was loosing who I really was and what I stood for in life.
I didn't like who I was, to be fair I never really have, I'm not a confident person, again photos will disagree. But I needed to change, I wasn't happy with the way I was living, working hours on end with only a few hours sleep, working days and days without ever having a day off, and for what, to pay someone around 80% of my wage the pleasure of occupying their flat as they live in the South of France while another 10% went towards the bills. It was thanks to my letting agency that helped turn this around, they sent me a letter telling me my rent was going up. Instant thought was to move out, but I had nothing. After a telephone call to my Mother it was decided that she would lend me the money needed for me to move out and I'd pay her back monthly, and within a few weeks I was out of there. Albeit I only moved across the road, but the new place is cheaper and much better. It actually feels like a home now as everything in it is mine, feels like I'm finally working towards something, all the hours I've put in and continue to put in go towards the next thing I need to buy, whether it be a new TV or bedside tables, its all mine, not rented, not borrowed, all mine.
So with this new flat, came a promotion at work. After I turned one down over a year ago I thought they'd never offer it to me again. I had to turn it down, I wasn't ready and it didn't feel right. But now it fits in with the whole me reinventing myself, and at work Ive actually never been happier. I'm still doing all the charity and PR work which is what I love doing, while at the same time moving myself up in the world. We spend on average 80% of our adult lives working so why not just enjoy it, but I'm just happy all round, at the moment my life seems in a pretty good place, give it another couple of months and I won't want it to change.
But it will, somewhere along the line, give it a few weeks or months, something will turn sour, the bubble will pop and I will be on a downhill so fast I wouldn't know what to do. People will say to me I have to stop being so negative, but sometimes you just can't help it. It's why it's called 'life' , sometimes you're happy, sometimes you're sad, it all goes together in making you a stronger and better person, so therefore I'm excited about the future and whats happening next, as whatever it is, it can only make me a better person.
Right?
